#Deathspank thonk of courage full#
#Deathspank thonk of courage plus#

#Deathspank thonk of courage plus#

Plus i get so tired i can hardley do anything i do one thing that drains me and i find it so irrating as i want to live life, i stay up till 3am try and get up early but nope, adn if i do my body goes out of sinqe! Its jsut the people question, theirs more to this story than told, past experiences etc, Ive been really loww this weekend crying non stop! im just going to take a break from everything this week! and you no i always feel belittled by everyone apart from my mum!

#Deathspank thonk of courage full#

In my head id love to have someone to share a place with, share things with! ok so people dont make you happy! but when you have found someone it does make oyu happy, i was happy before but this full filled what i was missing out with!

Their are many things iw ould like to change in my life for instance to move out and get a job, im at uni at the momment, im 31 and havent had a b/f in going on 7 years now that doesnt really bother me! but i feel women in genreal always want a bloke, i was in tears the other day when my friend told me she was seeing someone, its like our realtionship has changed and its killing me in more ways than one, she always said she wasnt intrested then this comes along, I love her to bits and im so scared this person will take her away from me, maybe im possiesive, i dont let people into my heart and i did her, thats when it starts to really hurt me, i want to hang out with her but i cannt as she lives miles miles and miles away! we are like sisters, the first person ive ever felt ok with, and i can see changes and its awful, i feel like a loner!! i might have a few aquentiences but they dont ever give the time! with this girl, things are changeing quite drematicley i was their when she was ill now shes better and im so happy for ehr, but things are changeing really quick, adn somehow i cannt cope with it, Heres me acting like nothings wrong when deep down their is, but i battle on, on im happy with myself, and happy with my hobbys, but somethings really make me go rock bottom esp friends! or theirfore lack off, but then again im only good at one friend have always been that way a true friend who can udnerstand me in everyway i give my heart to! I had agrophobia for a few years and battled with that now im out again, but it seems a big huge struggle and sometimes i think is it really worth it, but dont worry i carry on, were i live i havent got really any friends who would take the time out for me, i feel like its all me giveing to them, i would so like someone who i can just hang with and be myself with,